Stupid Book <3

I don't think reading Twilight was one of the brightest ideas I've ever had.
It was amazing and I loved it, and I'm not going to lie about that.
I hate it because it made me fall in love with a completely fictional person.
Someone who could never be real, even if there was such a person.
Because no one is that flawless.
No one is that perfect.
No one is that breathtaking.
And I'm really starting to wish I had never read that stupid book.
Because I can't get him out of my head.
I compare everything a boy says to me to what Edward would say in the same situation.
I keep hoping that the things he says are things the he means. The way Edward means everything he says.
And I know that comparing everything he says to Edward isn't fair. Because there is no such thing as Edward.
But I want someone like that.
Someone who would do anything for me.
Someone who is happy to be with me.
Someone who is just perfect for me.
Someone who makes my heart jump and stop.
Someone who I am so curious about I can't stop asking questions.
Someone who is just as curious about me.
Someone who is willing to love me like that.
Someone I can love like that.
Someone who will do cute things for me.
Someone I can do cute things for.
Pretty much, I just want someone.
And I hate feeling this way.
Because you're far away.
And thats making you like me less and less each day.
I know it.
You used to say really cute things to me, and now they're getting fewer and farther between.
I keep trying to make you realise that I am a good person, and lots of fun to be with.
But its hard when I can't be with you.

This whole lonliness thing is really getting to me.
I hate it.